You Give Me My Angel...And I'll Give You My Soal.
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Deal?
Wednesday, 6 October 2010
Monday, 4 October 2010
'The Only Exception'
Tis My Birthday today. But heres my problem.
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I told Skei the truth, I got with B.
Now?
He's not sure he loves me, and isn't going to give me the album he was working on for me.
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Brilliant, right?
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Well now? Yes, what am I going to do?
Well.
I'm not a good guitarist, I can read tabs but thats about it. I'm going to attempt to learn 'our song' in a week. I shall give up every picture I've ever drawn of us, and two canvuses with my 'art' of our relationship on.
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You think this will work?
Sunday, 3 October 2010
Just Waiting...
Here I am.Playing the waiting game once more.
Skei is coming over today. I hope he does anyway. Considering the weather, he'll turn up soaked from the rain. Make me appreciate him again. I've decided that I'm going to keep Skei, even if he thinks it best we break apart. I refuse to get ready until exactly 1 o'clock, in an attempt to keep my hopes from rising too high. The past two weeks have made me realise what I missed out on when I was focused on Skei. I didn't speak to my friends, all I worried about was him and my pursuit of perfection. Now, I've also realised, I wouldn't change him for the world. I need him, I need to help him.
Most of all. I need his love.
It's my Birthday tomorrow. I don't know quite how to feel. I'm on the brink of tears. What will I do if he doesn't turn up again? I'll have to accept it as a final rejection. Try to move on. Although, I don't think I can. It would honestly be the final straw that breaks me in two, right through the chest, making my heart explode, and unusable.
I hope he does come back to me. I'm going to wear my favourite clothes, the ones I broke down in over a week ago. To look my best for him, hopefully change his mind about abandoning me in a bottomless pit of self hatred and anxiety.
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I hope I get one last chance.
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