i was too busy yesterday to blog. :/ sorry.
i must say that if i get anymore stressed and frustrated then i will either become obese or skinny. and be a full time smoking addict. and expelled.
but hopefully i can stop myself form eating too much [half the reason i didnt post, i was reli ashamed of myself]
right well breakdown over. decided to go with the chew and spit tacktic of fatty foods. like crisps. did it twice yesterday and licked the taste off of some today too.
but i ate 2 sweets.
i reli need to get a box or something to put all my little sweets that arent gum.
also trying the elastic band theory. hav it on your wrist and ping it when ever you get hungry. mehh. works ish.
i had toast when i got home [150 cals :O i couldnt believe how much in a fucking slice of bread!] and a cup of grapes [114 cals :/] and an orange this morning [62 cals] which is about...
326 cals.
fuck.
went over the daily ammount im allowing myself.
its better than yesterday tho
the chocolate spread didnt even hav the nutritional values on -.-
but will be getting strickter. and sneekier.
must remember to take crisps and shit to school make mum think i ate that.
then eat whatever my afternoon meal is through the 2 1/2 hours until i cant eat. [6:00 is my time limit] i think i worked off alot tho. relay in p.e was tiring so that should hav done it, if not then my walk home would hav helped too.
and the fags yesterday. since they apparently burn calories.
but fuck me. im such a pig.
i dont wanna take pictures next sunday :/ or monday depending on spare time i hav...
iv written everything out. exercises, food, extra calorie burners [which iv also done alot of]...
i think tomorrow ill live off of 2 bananas.
then tell my mum i ate crisps... and toast.. hm..
huh.. according to a rough estmate thanks to an online calculator i am burning 4,306 calories. well today. cool.
#6 I've Never Had Control, I Want It And I Dont Care How.
thats about it reliiiiiii
so yah
fuck my life as usual
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