If I Curl Up Small Enough, They'll Never Remember I'm Here..

What a drastic change from nearly loving Christmas.
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I hate Christmas with a passion. I am so glad this is my last Christmas with my family. I hate it.
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Christmas is a pointless holiday. Its where you open shitty presents from people you barley know, eat until you cant move, gain like a bitch and get drunk enough to fall off the sofa.
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This year, I've ended up sitting by my bed, posting angrily, with some form of Dance music blaring from my new Ipod doc. So many things haven't gone right today. And before you ask. Yes. I am going to tell you.
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Shit #1. My mum bought the wrong £50 high tops. I mean that doesn't annoy me, if anything I feel sorry because my mum spent loads on shoes I dont even want.
Shit #2. On MY home made place mat, someone had spilt curry on it. For fucks sake! It was only mine! No one gives a shit, obviously!
Shit #3. I scoffed so many waffle-ish biscuits and Belgian chocolates that I'm seriously considering taking MORE laxatives.
Shit #4. I've been to the bath room about 20 times today thanks to my laxative abuse last night.
Shit #5. My Grandfather is an arse hole. All he does is moan, hold everything up and then tell everyone how to play Poker WRONG!
Shit #6. I've had more alcohol than I originally had planned. Only a glass or two more, but I am SO gonna work hard to get this FAT OFF ME!
Shit #7. I'm fat.
Shit #8. I punched a wall. Twice.
Shit #9. I want to die. Just because Christmas is so utterly pointless and supposed to be full of jolly people, but mine always contains my utterly cunt-ish family.
Shit #10. I havent heard from Skei in about 3 days. To be fair, it is Christmas and he is at his Mum's house. But Still, its Skei. He always finds a reason to talk to me.
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Now. I'm going to get changed into my PJs again.
Find some water.
And take about 4 laxatives.
And Dance. Until I cant feel my legs.
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'ice cream ice cream we all want ice cream!!' - Pink - Cuz I Can

And A Ho Ho Ho, From Our Lovely And Dear Santa...

MERRY CHRISTMASS!

(Okay, before I do anything, I must explain something. But also LOL at my first picture!)
@Skeleton Strong. I'm really self conscious when it comes to opening presents. To me, its like the moment on my birthday when everyone starts singing 'happy birthday' and every one's looking at me, waiting for a reaction. I don't mind if I know those people well, coz I could just be stupid, but because I've never met some of them its kind of worrying for me. Do you understand me now? XD
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Anyway. I got a great Christmas present. Heehee.

I'm 144.8! AHA! :D My lowest weight EVER! I love Christmas sometimes.

But out of all honesty, I did get a really good present from 'Santa'. Its a Naruto box set! XD I'm such a Naru-tard.

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Its great how some traditions in my house haven't changed at all. Like the fact 'Santa' always leaves a bog stocking of presents outside my door for me to open when I wake up. Sadly, this is my last forced Christmas at home. Next year, hopefully, I shall be in Australia with Rhii and Craig. If I ever get a job to earn enough for the flight.

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Kinda weird. Next year, I'll be living with my Dad, trying to make new friends, attempting to keep my grades good and also trying to have an AMAZING social life. Hm, if only.

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But Yes, I'd love it if (whoever reads this post today) You tell me what you got for Christmas! :D I like to know XD

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But TARRAAH for now.

I shall post later.

Telling you about my troubling day with my Dad.

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Merry Christmas ;)

x

'There's always somebody out there that loves you. Always.'